Round peg (Me) / Square hole (The rules)

When did I learn to stop playing?
Today I took a walk, much like any other day when I walk, only this time when I rounded to corner to begin my treck home, a thought overtook me. "I want to go into the park and swing on the swings...OMG,, what if they are not up yet? Then what?" Much to my surprise the swings were up, the neighborhood kids are in school and I can goof off! When did I forget how much fun I used to have being a kid? Swings, running, playing baseball in the back yard, riding my bike, playing "hide and go seek" playing my guitar. Seriously....how does adulthood take over? Ugh! The swings were GREAT the fresh air in my face, my legs pumping, pushing me to go higher and higher "OK..now jump off!" Luckily...my next thought was..."Really...you might feel like a kid again, but you really are older and much wiser and you might break something.. so don't!" I didn't.
As I continued my walk home, I continued to remember more of me. Round peg into a square hole. Yep...that's been me most of my life trying to fit. Being judged poorly because, well, I don't fit. And really that has always been ok for me. I am not happy conforming. Yes... I have conformed in many areas of my life, but now I wonder...What's so wrong with being round. Is there a rule book I missed somewhere?
I just told my husband the other day (while talking about my cellular phone plan..."Please, don't tell me what I have to do to make it work...let's find one that works for me!" That's what I have always wanted in life...One that works for me. I have found comfort, peace, love and happiness in my marriage. I have found great strength and pride being a parent to my ultra-fab kids and have really smart, cute and sassy grandkids!
So...instead of growing up more, I believe I would like to continue on my quest to get back to the me that I am comfortable being.