Faith, Choices and Me

Well...here I sit aimlessly at my computer waiting for the sun to shine, wishing I were anywhere but here. The longer I live in the northeast the more I am convinced I should be somewhere south and warm. Winter sucks!!! And, we don't even experience the snow here like other regions of the country. I just need the sun, less clothes and more daylight. Being here makes me want to pull the covers up and hibernate til spring gets here full force!

Which brings me to the issue at hand. "Choices" life is all about them. When I was younger I thought life just happened...as it turns out I was so wrong! Life is all about choice. So why do I still sit here cold and wishing........well its like this..........there is still one kid in college and my life partner to consider. I choose for the time being to stay here, research my options and choose life wisely. I am a diver by nature. For those of you who don't know what that means I will tell you. I spent the first 36 years of my life doing then thinking later. Now, I think, then...well you are right sometimes its not as much of a rush but at least I am at a much better place in my life. Responding to life allows you to think about which choice is the right one for you.

I am at a cross-road in my life. I can feel the change inside but it is not ready to become a reality just yet. Reality.........

My reality is I have a wonderful husband, incredible kids and really cute grand kids and me. Who I am has changed so much over the years. Life is no longer about figuring out who I am, life is about living. This year for new years, my resolution was to start to enjoy the things in life that make me happiest. WOW!!! Imagine for a workaholic like me that when I put me first, I found out that work didn't do it for me. I want more time to enjoy my partner, I want to experience things that are truly different than anything I have ever done before. I am lifting weights...for me....I am developing amazing definition in my arms, I am walking and have increased my stamina to include jogging, something, by the way, I couldn't even do as a teenager. I am also developing my core muscles, all this being said the best part of it is its for "me". Wow!! I have chosen for my health to be an important part of my future.

My routine has also given me the time to think about the next steps in my life with my partner. Where do I want to be? That's easy......South. What do I want to do? Not so easy. I have always played it safe and worked at retail management jobs that came easy to me. Now, I want something of my own..........what that is yet is unclear. I am good at people management, motivation, support and training. I love to watch people blossom. I also am wise enough to know that people must want to do it for themselves and no one can do it for them. That being said, people do things that they never thought they could do because they have been inspired by someone else who has accomplished something that they want to accomplish. Kind of "If she can do it.....so can I" I am looking for my mentor in the next level of success I will have in my life. I know there will be someone or something that will speak to me, even if the voice comes from within, as it does so many times.

"Faith...When we face challenges, God either puts solid ground beneath us or teaches us how to fly" I am learning how to fly.