What are you worthy of?

I am worthy of my Passions.

To have the time and energy to pursue them.

Some days....like today are quiet for me. Reflecting, moving slowly then regretting the time I spend lazily doing nothing productive. But...is it not productive to take time for ones self to rejuvenate? I stayed in bed til noon. Took a shower, ate lunch, then channel surfed til 3.

My job is draining I tell myself. Well, it does take a lot out of you to constantly reinforce to other women (who, by the way have minimal to no self esteem) that they are important, look great and should embrace themselves as special. No I am not a counselor, but a sales manager and trainer for a very visible women's retailer. Some customers are truly what I call "emotional vampires" zapping your energy in order so they may feel good. Its what I do essentially, give them energy, encourage other women to feel good about themselves. Teach them how to look in a mirror and see who they are rather than the labels someone else has put on them.

"I wonder if they ever did the exercise in school where you take a shoe box and put adjectives on the inside of how you feel and on the outside of the box that describe how you think other people view you?" It is amazing when those two worlds collide and you realize you are worthy of whatever it is that makes you happy and do not benefit from the labels or your own negative thoughts. Go pursue your dreams!!! "Create your life"

The amount of energy I exude at work is amazing. To what end though? Yes, my customers feel great when they leave but they still carry around their baggage, for their time with me is only a short fix. Then they return to their life, and come back to see me or one of my associates for another fix. The money they spend on new clothes to feel good always makes me a little sad. I cannot imagine being in their shoes, yet it is what makes me successful. I provide the positive attention they need, they spend money, I make money.

I have one woman who shops with me who has told me the reason for her shopping addiction. She is quite intelligent, is a professor at a well known university and has been diagnosed as using this addiction to cover up the wounds inflicted upon her as a child, made to feel "not good enough" and used the mask of "if I look pretty on the outside and get attention form others because of it I will feel good enough and be recognised as such". When in actuality she has almost lost her husband because of the way she spent money, causing them bankruptcy twice. He now has given her money to spend and she has been using that same money over and over again, making purchases, wearing items with the tickets attached then returning them for something new so the feel good cycle continues. She has now come up with a very creative way to spend the same dollar over and over again to feed her need to feel good.

There are many more I see on a weekly basis that spend money to feel good because something in their lives is not right. Rather than being responsible for their own choices they continue to try and fix themselves with retail therapy. I am always dumbfounded.

WOMEN, I scream, for heavens sake, why do you fill up your lives with meaningless crap? Why do you not know your own self-worth? Why do you need me or others like me to make you feel special. Why can you not do it for yourselves? What have you become?

Stand up! Take back your power! Rejoice in making better decisions in your life! And become the real "(insert name here)"

WOW Maybe I should have been a real counselor. Or at least taken some psychology classes. Hmmmmm..... I might be onto something.